My Faith Crisis
I would have thought the death of my daughter would have brought me closer to the connection of my organized religion, instead, it took me on a journey away from everyone, that resulted in full fulfillment.
On that journey, I learned that the chapel I had grown up in, the doctrine I had been taught, the fear that if I did not follow, were all chains keeping me from a true spiritual progression.
Stepping out and looking back in, I realized everything I was being taught was absolutely hypocritical. Don’t judge, yet everyone else that isn’t here in this church is wrong, people doing “acts” of kindness were only doing it because they were assigned to. It taught people to hide their actions and lie in order to “look” the part.
I thought that I needed organized religion to “feel the spirit.” You know why you can feel something so strong in a chapel? It’s simply because you are picking up the energy from everyone else, coming together with an intent to “feel.” It has nothing to do with the “spirit” being there.
The divine is ALWAYS there and when you clear those chains of being told how to be spiritual and listen to your inner guidance you become open to a spiritual experience that is nothing you can get by following a set doctrine.
Your journey and purpose here is to find yourself authentically, to love who you are so you can then reciprocate that love to others.
It’s not about marking boxes and aligning with those negative core beliefs that everyone has to be on the same path.
I had people judge, “oh she left because she wanted to sin.” This just shows how stuck in the mental concrete people are.
I left so I could actually understand my energy, my personal and unique connection I have with the Divine, as well as my ancestors, learning how to heal and balance myself.To find my gifts, to truly bring hope and joy back to those in the darkness.
Spirituality isn’t about being stressed out of your mind to get your kids ready to go to church, it isn’t about shunning your partner because they have habits that don’t align with the teachings, it isn’t about needing to read so many pages of doctrine a week, or paying an amount of your income so you don’t guilt yourself. Real spirituality does not align itself with material things, flashy buildings or a “dress” code. Shaming is a manipulation tactic… the Divine does not need negative vibrational energy to gain followers.
The divine wants you to feel and surround yourself with LOVE, the highest vibrational frequency of all. There is so much to learn and so much progress to be made if you can get outside of the confines of the box and change your perspective back to being focused on you and your path.
Blessed Be,
Amy
Beautifully said !!
Thank you 🙂